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A retrospective of my year to share with you a little bit of this emotional roller coaster that my expat life has became.
2015, a year of spiritual reencounter, personal discovery and love.
A year that has began in a spectacular way, with a short vacation escape to Indonesia. I found out the sweetness of Donkey Donuts (I saw this brand for the first time in Indonesia – yes, forgive me, shame on me, I did not know it before). After an intense year of work, there was nothing more fair than run away from this hustle and bustle, to enjoy the peace and the unique landscapes of a region so full of natural beauty.
Recharge the batteries, and praise to God for all the good things: every friendship, every battle won. In such places I always find peace and the presence of such a positive energy, that goes much beyond our knowledge.
Back to the busy routine, to feel once again the cold weather of Frankfurt and Peking touching my skin. Yes, the year of 2015 brought me so much self discovery that I started to value (even more) each sensation, each moment that this life provides us. From a calm sunset by the seashore in Indonesia, enjoying a drink, to the feeling of having my fingers freezing while walking in the center of Frankfurt, at nightfall, under a drizzle that insists in freeze also my ears… (my nose, I could not feel it anymore)
Another world’s wonder, the Great Wall of China. Together with my Chinese colleagues, I could discover this monument and understand why they call it a “world wonder”. Something I can not put into words, a greatness that is indescribable. Even nowadays people ask me about how was to be at the Great Wall and I only know how to reply with that “poker face”…
After the hustle in Shanghai, I had the pleasure to feel the very hot weather in another 2 different countries in Asia that I haven’t been before, Vietnam and United Arab Emirates. I got to know amazing people in Ho Chi Minh city, Vietnam and realized that despite the problems faced by the country, they have a very happy population, just like Brazil does.
At Dubai, United Arab Emirates, I was at the Burj Khalifa “At the top” (at the top of the world). The highest outdoor observation deck in the world! A tower with more than 828 meters high. From the top of that tower I could realize how big are the little details in our life, and simply wished that the world down there would be filled with love.
a year to review many of my concepts. The obligation to refrain from alcohol. A year where I found an incredible resilience. After a first semester emotionally troubled, I conquered an even stronger psychological.
To formalize the second language by conquering the international english certification. And deepen my studies to reach the third language (the HSK3 mandarin certification is a goal for 2016). The persistent battle to keep health for mind and body (and spirit) among so many desires, wishes and responsabilities.
In this last semester, I dedicated myself to return a portion of all the learning I had so far. For so I signed up for the UN volunteer program, where I was picked to help with translation for Issue Papers from UN Habitat III. I could collaborate with 2 Issue Papers about Housing and Transport and Mobility. There were a few sleepless nights, and all the vacant time (specially that hours spent travelling) were dedicated to this project. At the 45 minutes of the second half (28/12/2015) I received the feedback from the institution with regards for my contribution for “enhanced capacity of communities to identify local development priorities and ways to address them“. Can you imagine how happy I am?
2015 also had my frustrating attempt to write a book. After meeting so many amazing people in this journey, (some new friends that just arrive to stay) appeared the desire of putting the heroes I met in real life (and the villains) back to the books. But I realized that for this story to become really good, I needed to meet some other heroes in real life… So the story staid in stand by.
Some struggles, just to show me how much pride does not lead anyone to anything. I opened my eyes for so many bad things surrounding this world and how people get intoxicated trying to get rid from an evil. Sometimes they end up even worst than the bad thing itself. I put into action what my mentors have taught me during this journey, by fighting bad with goodness, and I do not regret anything that I have done during this year of 2015. I entered 2015 full of good things, and I feel that all the good things I have shared, (or some critics that I ignored) if they were not enough to make another happy, at least they did an extremely good repair to my soul.
To complete, in the middle of this turbulence, I met someone so special. I found my heart in a manner that I would have never imagined I would someday… Far from the cliches, I fell in love for a person who lives a life in an even faster pace than I do… What puzzled me, and at the same time disarmed me. A lesson. Suddenly, it was all or nothing. It was a kind of love that needs to be given 100%, every day. Suddenly I went on a state of alert about the brevity of our lives, and that I can not risk to spend a day without acting with 100% of love with those around me. Suddenly there were no doubts. No fears… Some priorities became so trivial. I discovered something much bigger than myself. And before I could consider whether it was love, I realized my heart was already surrendering…
A 2015 that disarmed me and prepared me with even stronger ones for 2016. And hope that the wishes of love, peace, comprehension e mainly happiness will be again present in our lives in this new year to come. Because those who learn how to cultivate happiness inside themselves, will easily find the way to the other virtues.
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